Drunk and Sad

So, I started this blog while I was studying abroad in Ireland. It was mainly to keep my parents happy and informed as to what I was up to and also, to keep my self busy while in Europe. This blog hs gone largely neglected over the last two years because I didn't have anything interesting to write about, or was too scared to share serious and honest feelings with the internets. Which, to be fair, isn't that odd. As the internet can be a cruel and unfeeling place. But tonight I am drunk. I am also very sad. The reason for this sadness is my ex-girlfriend Kim. A few weeks ago she decided that I wasn't serious in my hope to get back together with her and gave me the 'let's just be friends' line. To be fair, I was the one who ended the relationship in the first place, so this was a bit deserved. At the same time, I really was hoping things were different and that I would win her over. But, that was not how it went. So, here I am. Sad. Drunk. And very much alone for the time being. So it goes.

Mosque near, but not on Ground Zero

Ok, I get why people are getting increasingly angry about the Cordoba
Initiative trying to build a Mosque (also there will be a swimming pool, lecture hall,
and gym) near (2 1/2 blocks) Ground Zero and I get why people are angry. However,
please, please get all of the facts about the group, place, contents and
activities before you yell and scream about it. It is a privately owned
building, it is two and a half blocks away, it can't be seen from
Ground Zero, it is already being used for prayer service and has been
since '09, it has the support of local political and religious leaders
of various religions and there is no evidence of any funding from
terrorist groups or Iran, NONE AT ALL. So far there has only been
speculation, not proof.

As far as I can tell this has been a purposeful and direct attempt by groups that harbor anti-Islamic feelings to mislead and misinform people about this project. It has also been picked up by various political figures as a fresh hot button issue to use against their opponents in the upcoming election. This is one of the few times when I have been honestly disappointed about the shear viciousness of America and the willingness to lash out without checking the facts first. I guess I just don't understand why we think that it is OK to attack which ever minority group happens to be the easiest target. Damn. Just feeling seriously frustrated at my nation right now.

We are suppose to be a free nation that doesn't throw away our rights every time it suits us or we get angry, but that's now how we work. It hasn't been for a long time. As far as I can tell there isn't any reason that suggests that the government should step in and stop this from happening, but if people have all the facts and are still angry fine. I can understand that. I just can't understand hatred for the sake of hatred, or hatred built off lies and ignorance. I just can't. We have access to so many resources now, why do we still choose to just listen to one source and then start screaming bloody murder? Why?

I need a beer.

No time...

I have no time for this blog... But I'm going to Vegas this spring break with my friend Stephan... I'll try and do an update once a week from now on. Also, I have no job. Still. Fuck this economy.

November sucks...

Not to piss all over people who like the month of November, but it just hasn't really been that nice to me. Other than being sick a couple of times and not doing so hot on a test and a paper, I've been feeling a bit unsure about my future. I mean right now I still really want to go to law school, but I'm starting to worry that I won't be able to cut it. I've talked to lots of people who have done this and they all tell me the same thing. It's hard.

Not that I don't think I could do the work, but to pay for it I would most definitely have to get a job somewhere, which isn't exactly a piece of cake at the moment. And really, this is kind of a shitty time to figure out that law school might not be a place for me, because I always kind of thought that college was where you went to figure out what you wanted to do and now I'm a senior and unsure as fuck.

Also, I need to find a Christmas present for several people, other than my family and Stephan, I need something for Kim, Laura, maybe Lauren, though that might be kind of weird and taken in a way that I didn't entirely mean it to be taken and then... uh that's really about it. Maybe Cara and Huggie, but no one else. For some reason I like giving gifts, it's just easy to do. OK, I should put clothes on now...

Fall Break

Ok, so I guess I was suppose to go sky diving this break with my friend Megan, but since she and I have come back from Europe, we haven't really spoken. Which is probably why I am on the ground right now and not so much jumping out of a plane. That leaves me with a problem; I have a bunch of free time right now and nothing to fill it with... What I am really saying is I need a hobby. I have politics which is my major, I have the fraternity which is my home, I have friends and I have drinking. What's missing? Well I need something more, in fact, I probably need a couple of somethings more. But it's ok because I already know what I need. They are:
1. A girlfriend or fuck buddy - yeah, they eat up time and you sometimes get to have sex, it's a win win for everybody!
2. A sport - I was thinking getting back into with swim or soccer, since my attempt at fencing died real quick. This would help me stay in shape, meet new people and give me something to focus on.
3. A real hobby - I added 'real' to this because it needs to be something that I actually do. I mean if it is poetry or writing, that's fine, but I have to actually do it. Write complete stories and poems and read them and re-read them, edit them. That sort of thing. It needs to not be things like porn, tv shows, or video games/computer games. Because as much as I have with those they aren't helping me better myself at all.

Anyway, I need to get healthier, happier and... well, fuck I don't have another H-word. So, happier, healthier and more goddamn fantastic then I already am.

Ok so...

Yeah, I know. It's been a long time. No one is going to read this, which is kind of the point because I never really wanted my parents friends/parents to read this blog, but hey, it's probably good that they did. It kept them up to date while I was gone. Anyway, today's post is all about my favorite tag, and what is my favorite tag, you ask? That's right it's 'Ninjack'(pronounced Nin-Jack). Now some may claim I have no right to this name, however I feel as though I was one of the first if not the first to use it (on the internet). This all started way back with Mech Warrior 4, where I was first used the name Ninja - not all that original. Since there were a lot of other folks using that tag I wanted something new. Out of that and my friend Eriq, came Ninjack, which I used for everything from Mech W 4, Xbox live, online chat, my blogger name, and WoW gamer tag (well not anymore cause I've stopped playing). Then I go and try to create a youtube account. Guess what... Some guy already took the name ninjack, and yet he has done nothing to promote that name or post any videos that are ninja related. So I was forced to take the name ninjack88. This saddens me that the term/name ninjack is not only being spread out among the internet, but also, used by those who refuse to do the name proud. Damn, this is perhaps the nerdiest fucking post I've ever written, see this is what happens when I get out of class early and am stuck on campus. Anyway, guy who took the name ninjack - fuck you.

Goddam Fire Mana Beasts

Ok, so working construction has been sucking the strength from my body, thus rendering me unable to continue my blog... I'm seriously thinking of shutting this down, mostly because I don't think anyone is still reading. So, I'm basically just typing out a little online journal for myself. Oh, by the way the title of this little post comes from Stephan, his characters from Secret of Mana 2 were getting killed as I started this post. I don't really have anything exciting to talk about, I just want to say that I am really tired of pop culture sometimes... I'll do a real post this weekend.